Who do I see? Mia looking back at me.

When I have my hair pulled back tied into a knot,
a look of determination in my face and bones showing through my chest.
Who do I see?
When I try to eat a peach and end up feeling too full from it, so I NEED to p.
and because I can't p with so little food in my stomach I b.
Before I p I feel like a failure, and I hate to feel the weight in my stomach.
Afterwards when I wash my face I feel free and light and CLEAN.

I like to see the bones on my chest and my ribs on my back.
But who do I see looking back at me?
I see a sad version of me. I don't want to be mia, I feel healthier when I don't p
I hate mia.

Mia hurts me, and Ana sets me free.

I am trying to stop p-ing.
I MUST Stop.
It's gotten a little out of hand in the last couple days.
My goal is to be free from mia's grasp and to eat in a way that feels comfortable which is light.

This is a time when need you and your support the most.
Help me be strong loves.

I will get through this small bump in the road, I already feel better.
Tomorrow I'll eat fruit and kelp noodle soup to get back on track.
my kelp noodle soup is one of my favorite meals, it doesn't make me feel too full,
and makes me feel good.

With your help I can be better.