Keep going~

just keep going keep working keep fighting for what you want.
you can do it slowly but surely. i have stayed around 109 lately. im happy about that because i also fit nicely in my size 0 pants.
i am trying to keep busy and be thankful for the somewhat of a balance that i have in my life right now. im trying to avoid eating around people too much and eating only  a small amount of low calorie foods when i do eat. today i have a sore throat so im going to try not to p today. lately i p almost everyday which im not happy about. it makes me feel defeated when
im standing trying so hard to get something out knowing its inside me makeing me feel sick.
and finally when im done and satisfied i have tears in my eyes and a sore throat.
its very upsetting or at least it has been in the last couple of days.
i feel like i need a break.
hopefully by sunday when i see my friend for his birthday ill have lost more weight.

i want him be wowed when he sees me. i want to feel beautiful.