Hi all my beauties,
I hope you are all feeling good.
I am finally in my house getting all settled in. I have my work out meditation room all set up and a garden already started! I have gotten down to 108lbs. but over the last weekend I spent it around my son's father and ended up gaining 3 pounds, so I'm back up to 111lbs. so I'm not too happy about the gain, but I will be very disciplined this week and am hoping to get back down by this Saturday. My goal this week is to lose 5 lbs.
Living alone has made me feel so much better. I finally left my cheating baby daddy, and the lack of stress I feel has helped me so much. I have been taking my vitamins like I should be everyday, and working out and eating light and sparse, I generally will eat one meal a day in the evening for dinner with my son. I have been trying to improve the health of my hair so I have been trying to eat more salmon, so I will eat a small portion of salmon with a glass of wine and possibly some sauteed Shitake' mushrooms, Onion, and Spinach, or a small salad if I feel hungry. The trick has been to not feel the food, once I begin to feel "comfortable" I stop eating. throughout the work week while I'm at work I'll sip some coffee in the mornings and switch to sipping flavored water if I feel hungry in the middle of the day.
So, so far so good, from where I started at 125 to now I feel much better and went from a size 4 to a size 2.
I plan to keep going til I feel comfortable in my skin. My most current goal is to weigh 100lbs.
In reference to my title, I want to say that I love my eating habits, I love that losing feeling I feel when I haven't eaten all day, and I don't plan to stop the lifestyle I have developed for myself.
Some people would call it an eating disorder, but I say it is a customized eating plan I feel good about.
I like feeling light, and free from being weighed down physically (and emotionally) In any sense of the word.
I feel that by leaving Toxic people behind me, and moving into my new house and getting back to my Buddhist rituals and practices that I can achieve the body and soul that I desire.
Thanks to all of you and your support we can stay strong and confident together.
Til next time,
Your Blue Butterfly
